· 9:04 am
LOST
Original Xanga entry ↗Entirely & utterly lost.
Don't know who I am, where I am, what I am doing.
The line finally snapped.
It was heading there for a while now, even as I tried to ignore the symptoms.
I'm sorry for letting everyone down. I'm just not as strong as I thought I was. Putting the pressure on myself and driving myself crazy. Everyone else seems to think I'm stronger than this. But maybe this is the true me. Maybe I just cannot handle it.
No point in trying to regret now. As always, its too late.
I don't remember how or why. I just remember being in a lot of pain. The pain seemed to go away after a while, but then it always returned even stronger than before.
I need help.
I know I can't look towards you for help anymore. The wall has been breached, the damage irreparable. It would be unfair for me to ask anymore from you than you've already done thus far.
I don't know where am I going from here.
I am simply lost.
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rhyolite · 10/20/2007 11:59 AM
Hey, what's happening?
-irene
... · 10/20/2007 2:14 PM
Oh dear, oh dear.
Everyone has moments of crisis. And online is probably the most horrible place to give advice. Still. I suggest you talk to someone, a friend. A close friend, someone who knows you. You don't have to feel capable of talking. Just do it. Do it as a first step... maybe you've done it already. Then if you need to seek professional help, go find it. Don't be afraid.
It's really, really normal to feel lost. Strength is overrated, and comes when you don't expect it.
All the best to you, ya?