Random Thoughts

There are good days and there are bad days. But I've come to realise that the bad days are what make the good days good.

Someone once asked me if I would rather live a life of mediocracy, just day by day no ups, no downs... just a straight line or if I would live the life of ups and downs. I'll choose ups and downs anyday.

Its the downs that make you appreciate the UPS. And the ups can really make you feel that everything in life is worthwhile.

Thank you to all my friends who have seen me thru the ups and downs.

Mich, I know you read my blog. Your constant care and concern, even though we so rarely keep in touch warms my heart. I truly appreciate it.

While I wish that some things turned out differently, I don't wanna live regretting the things I have done, the choices I have made. I only have one big regret in life. October 25 2001. While I know that was a necessity at that point, it was a choice that has given me the greatest regret til this date. Life goes on, but that still and will forever haunt me.

D, thank you for everything. The support you have provided in the good times and especially in the bad times have truly helped me move ahead for the past 6 years. And I believe that our bond will continue thru our life because its something that you can't erase.

CCC, I know you are still there and you've fought to keep the pain away. I'm sorry I couldn't withstand the difficulties, but thank you for understanding. I hope we will still be friends someday.

My thoughts are towards moving ahead in life now, although not a fresh start, but at least a semblance of progress that hopefully will steer me towards my ultimate goal in life. I still want a family of my own. Seeing everyone in my life moving ahead with their own spurs me on to get started on doing what I need to do as well. With how things have been progressing at work, I may be able to start working on doing things I have constantly put off over the years. Alot of debts to be paid, alot of goals to be achieved. And I truly hope to work towards all that.

Liz, you've been the bestest girlfriend that a girl could have. We've said to each other "I TOLD YOU SO" waaaay too many times recently. Let's hope we can reduce that soon

Em, I'm gonna be a GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD Ma! I envy your happiness, but I truly feel that we've been fortunate to have been this level of closeness for so long. I can't wait to meet my Godchild(son) in Oct

Irene, I bet you dun even read my blog lor, but its ok... Congrats on taking a risk and making a decision for yourself. We live life the same way... THE WAY WE WANT TO LIVE IT. I'm sure this risk will pay off eventually. In the meantime, at least you're gonna finally get off your butt and get your degree...

Ash, don't really know what we are doing or where we are headed. You were my UP and you've also been my down. I would like to believe that there is a future somewhere, somehow. But irregardless, I don't regret.

Mom, I love you. Don't ever doubt that. While I may not build a life around you, but I build a life that I hope we can share again in the future. I have never doubted that you've always had me in your thoughts and in your heart with whatever decisions you've made and I'm glad that you've moved ahead to try to forge a successful life for yourself. I want you to believe that Happiness comes from Contentment and that comes from within. No one can make you happy if you believe that everything boils down to what you want but don't get. We all need to make sacrifices and I know you've made many sacrifices over the years. Sometimes, we need to learn to balance our sacrifices with what needs to be done instead of what others wants us to do. Its not selfishness. Its called living a life we want.

I want to live a life I want, I choose, I decide, I make. Its not about anyone or everyone else, although no man is an island but only when you can please yourself then can you please others.

2007. A year of change. I believe.