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I feel so utterly miserable. I don't know why and I don't know how... all I know is my life feels like it's at the end... Everything I am trying to do right goes wrong. Everytime I try my best, my best becomes my worst. Is it worth my time to sit and sob? Is it worth my time to consider what is going wrong?

Days when I feel like just burying myself and never crawling out again. Days when I can almost feel myself dying. My life is only complete with some kind of happiness, but I fear now I will never feel that happiness again. I fear I will never see the light again.

Am I still a child? I have had a child.

The winds will blow, but where will it blow me?

God help me, for my faith is no more and I shall not survive this winter...