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I'm confused. When a guy tells you, that he ever since he has known you, the perfect woman in his mind, is slowly becoming a reality, would you take it as "just a line" ? I don't know exactly what is prompting this, but it is just so frustrating not to be able to put across the point that I want to put across. He knows that I am not ready for a relationship, but to him, he said he just wants to have that focal point in his life, that friendship that he can depend on. And making me happy has been part of that focus. I know that I should be happy, that someone thinks so much of me, to want to make me happy. Yet in some sense, I am terrified of it.

There are days that I think, my life would be much easier if I could dig a hole and bury myself, where no one can find me, and where I can just snuggle up to myself, and be contented. But there is no such thing as a LONER world eh?

Thought that this might be time for another quote, one which goes like this :-

Love is like......you know, love is just like waiting for a bus. When the first bus came, you looked at it and you said to yourself "Eeek...it's so crowded...there's no place for me to sit down". So you said to yourself, "I'll wait for the next one".

So you let the bus go and waited for the second bus. Then the second bus came, you looked at it and said, "Eekk...this bus is so old...it would probably be very
uncomfortable ". So you let the bus go and again, decide to wait for the next bus.

After a while another bus came, it was not crowded, not old but you said,"Eeekk...no air-conditioning...and the weather is so warm, I had better wait for the next one". So again you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.

Then the sky started to get dark as it is got later. You panicked and jump on to the next bus which arrived. It is not until much later that you found out that you had boarded on to the wrong bus!!! So you wasted your time and money waiting for the bus you didn't want! Even if an air-con bus came, it did not gurantee that it wouldn't breakdown or that the
the air-conditioning be too cold for you?

I am sure you have this experience before. You see a bus coming (the bus you want of course), you flagged it but the driver pretended not to see you and zoomed pass you! When the bus zoomed pass, all you could do was WALK!!! Waiting to get what you want is not wrong. But it wouldn't hurt just to give other people a chance right?

If you find that the "bus" doesn't suit you, just press the red button and get off the bus! The bottom line is being loved is like riding on a bus that you are waiting for. The decision on whether to ride on a bus or to walk totally depends on you. And walking is totally being out of love! You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back.

- Writer Unknown.

Is this what love is? Sometimes it feels that way... I just wish I knew which bus was the right one...