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People once said that when there is a feeling of doubt, it is sometimes time to bail ship... Today, I had a feeling of doubt. Not enough for me to actually stop wanting him, but enough to make me think twice. Is that strange? I do love him, in more ways then one. But I also happen to know that he doesn't love me as much. Is there actually such a thing as equal love? It hurts in some ways, but it also makes me wiser in others.

To him, perhaps I am not his, to me, I also know he is not mine, but you can't fault a girl for wanting eh? He once told me he has sacrificed alot of things for me. I, without a doubt, believe him when he said that. However, does he know how much I have sacrificed? I'm sure he has no idea at all.

Is this love? When there is doubt, can that still count? Days like these, make me doubt my sanity...

On the bright side, I actually had a great time hanging out on-line with Peter today. He was in one of his better moods and we had great fun talking about PK, life and stuff in general. He is one of my most trusted friends I'm not sure what I would do without him.  He can make me laugh as easily as sitting down *grin* hard to believe such a great guy exists eh? Believe it, cos I know him <right Peter?>

Anyhow, I was gonna go out for dinner and a movie with Mark, my "Part-Timer", today (yes I've just discovered that maybe I can start naming names cos they sure as hell won't be surfing on here.) However, when I called him, he was asleep Sooooo I ended up folding my laundry and getting a small area of my room tidyed up. I really should get more of my room tidy though... maybe I'll go do that later.

Okie, I'm gonna go do my regular bout of surfing now. Til laters. *wave*