Highway to Heaven or Hell

At times like these, when I'm working towards a certain goal, I find myself wondering if I will ever get to my final destination.

The plan over the past 3 weeks has been to get work shit back on track. Slowly, but surely I'm managing to clear bits and pieces of it. Its not complete, but things are coming together. The new notebook has helped me keep things in perspective and its easier to figure out what needs to be done, especially the things that need to be done asap.

On the other hand, I don't find myself achieving normalcy in the other parts of my life. If anything, it feels more and more frustrating as the gap grows bigger and bigger. I would like to say that its just my imagination, but I know its not. Mind tells me "Don't be oversensitive, not everything has to do with you". Heart tells me "You're fucked."

Makes me feel sad when a little girl told me over the weekend "Bye bye stranger".

There are days when I feel I've become a stranger even to myself. What I really need is to figure out how to inspire myself to become the person I like again. Problem is its never that simple is it?