· 3:49 am
Peace
Original Xanga entry ↗To quote a kotek
"Make Lurrrrrrrve Not Warrrrrrrrrr!"
Sometimes the pressures of being in an unhappy relationship can really get to you. When that pressure is lifted, you can feel free to resume what you had before and work towards making things more comfortable between 2 parties.
The inclination to reach out to Ash is still there, but the support that is rendered has now been multiplied ten fold because she is giving the support as a friend and no longer as a partner in an unhappy relationship. Its no longer an obligation or duty, but more as what she would do for any friend, and a close friend at that.
It helps.
I have no illusions of what the future may hold, but look forward to gaining back the same connection we once had before this entire drama unfolded itself and pushed us so far apart that it seemed like we were on different continents altogether.
Sometimes, it is easier just being friends, so there are no false expectations of what each person needs to contribute in a relationship. I feel free to tell her off now and don't expect to do things for her like I used to. The fear that I had of offending her has faded away and its much easier to crack jokes now since its easier to laugh about every situation. No longer need to feel sensitive about everything 
The insecurity has melted away and I feel much more like myself. Better then I have in ages.
The skies may be grey, but its no longer raining.
Historical comments (3)
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Ash · 9/5/2007 4:35 AM
I have never commented on your blog in all the 1 year we have known each other and now I comment on 2 blog entries consecutively!
And you are WRONG! You are NOT free to tell me off and you should STILL be afraid of offending me becos I am still a stubborn arrogant asshole! Remember that!
And stop the drama, the sky isnt grey....It's all nice and blue, and there are many singing birds in the trees!
jessliv · 9/5/2007 4:52 AM
For your information, we've known each other for 527 days which is actually closer to 1.5 years. We dated for 1 year and yes, you've never commented on my blogs.
Sorry, I WILL feel free to tell you OFF and I will NOT be afraid of offending you. If you get offended, THATS YOUR PROBLEM! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAAHHA
And BTW, look outside the balcony... its grey today! And I don't see no birds!
Liziscrazyforshoes · 9/5/2007 5:00 AM
"527 days which is actually closer to 1.5 years"
What's with the date and number calculations?
Since we're doing calculations here and I'm bad at math, I can at least say that I'm glad to be quoted TWICE on the same blog.
Seems like my quotes do make sense
Isn't it funny the way things work sometimes.. what we imagined in fear can take a positive turn
The past few days I've observed a great amount of pressure and air of tension lifted
The comfort level in the office now has once again reach a level of normality
This is the both of you and the three of us that I've missed
I'm glad we're back and though it is too early a speculation, there does seem to have potential for this friendship to work well in the long run
I love you my dear