WTF?

Today:

"Martinis Make Me Laugh"
"Tell me how much it cost. I'll tell you if I want to pay for it."

" I can only do >THIS< much"
"Fuck you for putting all the pressure on me.  I'm nobody's bitch"

"Stressed"
"It's always going to be my fault. Why don't you just shoot me now?"

Mood Swings.

Irrationality.

Work.

Flying to MNL on Wed and still don't have my shit together.

Plate overflowing, can't even try to get some help without getting blasted.

Is it possible for me to actually get through ONE FUCKING day without having to feel DOWN? Other people shouldn't affect my mood, but the key people know they can and they do. All I want is some understanding. Not some bullshit about how its always my fault, always last minute, always ME.

Stand in my shoes. Be ME for a day, then realise that its not that fucking easy.

Juggling. Forever juggling everything thats meant to be on my plate and more. Missing out on things. Lost my helping hand over the past week. Losing myself for 3 days. Where am I going with this?

Organisation? Yeah Sure.

ABC 123

It's never that simple and don't I know it. Life, Love, Work.

Can you ever just say FUCK IT? Or rather, can I just say it? Do it? Do I even want to? Or am I just huddled up in my comfort zone?

Happiness. Needs Contentment. How to be content when you're struggling to make sense of everything? Or everyone?

Grass is always greener on the other side. Everyone thinks that everyone else has it better. So in order to believe that the grass on the other side is burnt, all you have to do is to peer at the other shore.

Who needs food when you can feed yourself on all the pressure that is piled up on top of you?

Will everything still be in one piece on Friday? Don't know. Can't see that far. Can only see the green green grass on this shore right now.

Sheeps eat grass. Green Green Grass.