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Well, I guess I was right on the part about bad things coming in 3s... Guess what, when I was cooking the chicken for my mum's doggie today, I accidentally left the fire on too long... There was a plastic plate on top of it... and it kinda started burning Sooooo, I burned a pot, with a melted plate over it and my mum's doggie ended up with no food. I don't know how that happened, except my mum was calling me to remind me to feed her doggie and she kinda called once too many times... and she tends to be long-winded when we talk on the phone.

Anyhow, other things have been happening, like my young friend who wanted to run away to America has actually moved out. And since she doesn't have a place to stay, she's staying with me right now. I'm thinking that she needs some time to learn independance. She wants to get a job and earn her way. And I don't think I am about to stop her Support is what she needs, and maybe she'll find out that sometimes studying life is much much better then working

I know I've been pretty slack on my weblogs and reading of weblogs for the past few days, mainly because I haven't been to work and because my emotional state just makes me want to keep busy. I hate it when I sit down and try to write something and end up crying.

I watched "The Wedding Planner" last night on VCD and thought to myself, if only -HE- would go the way of Mathew McConnary and pick me... but I suppose I know that's not going to happen... So yes, I be closing that door, but no harm in having dreams right?

Anyhow... I promised him I would try to remain friends. But I know it will be hard, cos just meeting him, seeing him, causes me alot of hurt. However, I think I shall try. Though we may not be lovers, but we can still be companions, and soulmates...

Sometimes I wonder about myself and my sanity. On one hand, a guy who professes I am important to him, I am his soulmate and that I cannot leave him, yet well, he can't be solely mine. ON the other hand, a guy who worships me, and who thinks that I am the woman he wants to spend his life with. Yet, I don't feel he is likely to be the one because I don't feel the connection, that *thing* that makes someone your other half. Sometimes, I think people just meet at a bad time, and nothing will ever work out... *sigh* I am soooo freaking confused and unhappy, it's not funny

Anyhow, maybe I'll feel better after I have calmed down.