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Well, I've been having a pretty bad day... dunno why, just feeling all depressed and stuff... However, that's no reason to get everyone else down, so here's a THANK YOU to my 3 new subscribers:-

meltinghalo :- a really cool girl who gets high on pixiesticks *winks* and owes me some gobstoppers too...

picker :- Who just got a new job

and also

kluless :- who writes really really well...

Thanks for tumbling into my realm... sit tight, and hope you don't fall over

I don't really know what is wrong with myself today... perhaps just the feeling that nothing seems to go right... people whom I want to be close to, seem to be drifting away... Loved ones are beginning to seem further and further from me... and the niggling doubt in my mind concerning my future just urrrks me... I know when I get home tonight, I am just going to sit down and cry for awhile. Only crying can relief the unhappiness and tension I feel within my heart.

Has anyone felt that they've loved someone so much that they would give anything in the world to make the person happy? Even if it meant giving the person up? It hurts me so damned much... but each day, the conviction grows in me that I have to let go, because it is not meant to be. The tears just well up in my eyes whenever I think of all that I have been thru, just wanting to make this one person happy... and how I have often failed.

We can be so shallow sometimes, trying to make ourselves believe that things will work itself out, that we lose sight of facts... Today, I've seen some facts that make me believe I have been blind all this while.

Quote for today, which someone very important to me always used to tell me:-

Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly.

-- Rose Franken

There have been many days that I had lived just on this quote, believing that all the silly things we did as lovers... was justified... and everything was going to be alright. Today, doubt is knocking on the door... and choices beckon.

North,South,East,West,Up and Down...
The road I chose
I hope
Will be sound...