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Sitting in the doctor's waiting room with Ray, awaiting an appointment that was meant for 1 hour ago. So we were late and others were early. It's still just a tad frustrating to have to just sit and wait.

Fortunately, I have this to keep me company. I've discovered the launch is for today, so we'll prolly pop over to plaza sing later and check out the phone plans available. Think it will be really useful to get this for myself.

Didn't sleep well last night, even though I had darling Ray next to me. My inconsiderate brother played CS through the night. Even after I yelled at him, he still went bang bang bang. Both me and Ray got up feeling the worst for wear. So now we are both trying not to fall asleep while waiting. I think I logged 6 hours of sleep, but Ray is less forgiving of noise, so he slept much less.

My collegue Delphine told me recently that I can be very confrontational when I'm speaking. I guess in a way, I speak fast and furious because I am tired of how slow people take things to be. I want to be laid back and relaxed, but it's hard with the sense of responsibility I have. I always worry about the consequences. It is bad when I seem to be rude, or inconsiderate. I don't mean it, but some how it gets across that way.

I'm tired of how things are, the constant struggle for survival. Really hope it can be changed, but I can already foresee the problems ahead. I need peace like the river...